Opening. Me. Completley confused.

Hey, I'm Bryanna. I'm not to sure anyone will really read this. But hey, its a blog. A typical teenager that goes through life and its problems it throughs at her -.-. Thanks alot. Life is just a way to learn. Well, I've learned alot. Family, confusion, hatred, friendship, changes, crushes. All the stuff that people expect us to go through. Well, Right now. My main problem is a boy. Not gonna tell you who, but here it is.

So, technically, i didnt ask for anything. At all. I basicly went through life thinking about all the stuff that could happen not paying attention to what I really thought, really felt, really knew. Reality. Thats it. Thats exactly what i didnt pay attention to.
Now i'm not a big fan of reality. Not at all. Like seriousley. Not a fan. Its just how I can go through life letting things fall through my fingers like sand. So I pull the stupidest thing i can. The friend card, thinking that way, maybe if i drop suddle hinds, he'll know that I like him. But no. It wasnt my intention at first. I first met him and found him kinda... Well, kinda odd. So I go with that. Try to get to know him better.

So as I get to know this guy better, i feel like we get closer. Then he gets a girlfriend. I feel this urge to ruin their relationship, but dont. 1- shes one of my friends. 2- I'm not that kind of person. 3- I didnt even know i liked him yet.

then the school year ends. I talk to him over the internet and we become closer into becomeing one of eachothers bestfriends. Problem. I figure out i like him. Rating? Bad. So I find out who he likes, and that she likes him back. Not good. So I try to get them together because he's all sad and that just lead me to frusteration. I couldnt go through with it. So I felt like avoiding him. Bad idea. I told him why which made me mention i like him. Now i'm pretty sure he's avoiding me. And i'm 100 % sure i just ruined a really close friendship.

Oh great.